Printemps? Yes :)

Labels: - Tuesday 30 March 2010


La La La.


It is a Tuesday.
Which does not really signify any important event; just the fact that I can sleep in and lounge around the house really makes my day.
But on the other hand, it is too quiet.
It is too empty.
I don't like it.

As usual, I am being the contradictory creature that I am.
My mum tends to say to me- "Vick, stop fighting with yourself."
And she is right. I should become more decisive. I should stop changing my mind.
And yes, it is not New Year's. It is not time for resolutions.
But truthfully, there are so many things that each of us should do. However, there is a big difference between whether we have to or just simply should do.
It depends.
But don't take this advice, because I'm contradicting myself as usual.

I was up in my attic yesterday, rummaging around and I found two things.
Firstly, I found some pictures of myself when I was younger. It brought memories back :)
Secondly, I found an old cookbook hidden under the piles of paperwork.
Despite the battered edges and the occasional torn pages, it seems a keeper.
I am planning on making myself a better cook.
And if you have read/seen Julie&Julia, who follows Julia Child's recipes for a whole year, I am not planning on doing that.
I am just planning on learning to cook something more than pasta, chicken and.. cheesecake.
Why did I have to think of that word?
Cheesecake.
Such a good word.
:)

There are many good words in the world.
And I believe that depending on who you are, your good words relate to you.
So each person's good words are unique.
If that makes any sense.
My good words are many. There are so many clouding up my brain at the mo, which means I can't think straight.
No, not really.
I guess..

Talking about words
A friend of mine told me recently that everybody should start using the power of the word "no" in order to get things straight in your life. They said that if you don't want to agree to that, and you know you will regret it immediately, and that it won't be good for you, say no.
"Stop being afraid of confrontation and deal with it" they said.
So conclusion being conclusion:
Don't just say yes to make others happy.
Make yourself happy too.
So today, say no :)

I had the tidy bug yesterday.
It just whizzed past and sat on my head.
So I tidied up some folders that I knew were waiting for me, desperately pleading "tidy me, tidy me" and I also threw out a pile of old magazines and papers which I no longer needed.
It made the house feel much more.. light.
Like a burden was lifted.
The house is now a feather.
I'm just thinking of feathers at the mo, because it is a word in the lyrics of a song which is running through my head.

What I tend to do,
is that I sometimes think in lyrics.
When someone says something, I will just nod my head, as the appropriate lyrics are passing through my mind.
And no, I'm not a walking Ipod.
And I don't think I have OCD as someone suggested last week.
I do not know if he was joking.
I believe it is just my horoscope. :D

Dreams.
Right now I'm talking about the ones you see in your sleep.
I tend to be a restless sleeper.
Sometimes I see dreams; sometimes I don't.
I do lately, but I don't remember them much.
Only if an event later on in the day triggers a memory, then I will remember it.
Kinda.
So it pleasantly surprised me this morning when I could remember it.
I was at the beach, and it was summer. I could feel the sun on my skin. It was very vivid.
And the sea was warm too, which was odd.
But then the scenery changed and I found myself in an empty classroom, and people who I know kept saying stuff, but I couldn't hear it clearly.
I'm not sure what they were saying. I think it was in a different language.
That's all I can remember for now.
I wonder if it will come back to me soon.
Later on in the day perhaps.

Time for horoscope of the day:
Apparently I should :"Out with the old and in with the new. Striking a balance could require a big change". It also adds that "my impulsive side is acting a little crazy today, but not in a scary way. I could end up paying more on something that I don't need."
Hmm.. Very interesting.

Oh look at the time.
I never wear watches by the way. Because then I would be glancing at it every five seconds.
Aside from that, it is time for me to splatter paint.
Not over a wall. Although it would be very creative indeed.
But I have this assignment to finish, no, sorry, begin. And if I don't start now, I don't know when I will.
So paintbrush check.
Paint check.
Paper check.
I just need to find my old paint splattered clothes.
I will report back with my creation.

Dears, guess what?
I will be posting later today or tomorrow. So I will speak to you all later.
Have a happy, fun and marvellous Tuesday :)

xxxx Victoriaaa (:

ps. the photo?
yes it was this lovely flower which was being lonely, as it was sadly lying on the pavement.
I decided to take a photo of itt :)
Tell me what you think.
(:

Bonbon Cherie.

Labels: - Saturday 27 March 2010


Habits, habits, habits.


Lets face it. They are a part of our life.
They can be persistent. They can be fun. They can be annoying. They can even be enlightening in the way that we can learn a lot about people depending on the compulsive actions they do on a daily basis.

Perhaps you pick your nails when you're nervous. I for a fact, know well too well, that it is the fastest way to wave goodbye to that fresh coat of nail varnish. You see I tend to constantly be fiddling with my nails. I am as we type.

Perhaps you bite your lip while you're thinking, or play with your hair, or even crack your knuckles. Or ankle. (Yes dear, I know that you are frowning while you are reading this.).
Maybe your are the kind of person to poke your finger in the cookie dough, when you know that you're not supposed to, or to doodle over and over again on your hands only to scrub it off at the end of the day. And then to realize that the marker was permanent.

Perhaps you rip paper into tiny bits, and then drop it on the floor, only to immediately pick them up again once they've fallen out your palm.
Perhaps you are a persistent pen clicker, or a persistent foot tapper, or even a persistent whistler. Perhaps you too are a persistent scribbler.
Maybe you eat standing up.
Or wash your face with cold water.
Or doing anything else.

Point is, that habits are what make you, YOU. And what make me, ME.
And what make the neighbour, the NEIGHBOUR.
So don't change your habits. They are unique. They make up a person that is called you. (:

Right now, I'm biting my lip.
I don't immediately realise I'm doing it. It is a habit.
Stupid headache. Go away.
Even though I try to slap the air in front of me, assuming that my headache is hovering somewhere around there, it doesn't seem to want to abandon me.
Hmm.. Why?
Headaches are weird creatures, I must say.

I have to say, it is definitely feeling like summer is on the way.
And I am so happy about it.
Finally, those layers and layers of clothes can be happily bundled away into the closet, and I can say hello to shorts, tee-shirts and flowy dresses.
I'm shining. (:

I have a photography assignment to do.
But I don't feel... inspired.
In any kind of way.
It's rather frustrating.
I've adjusted the macro mode, taken off the flash, adjusted the exposure and got my camera set on black&white, but the only problem being is the subject.
I can't find it.
I've been rummaging through the crevaces of my mind and still no bang. No epiphany. No idea. No nothing.

Aujourd'hui, my horoscope reckons that "You don't have to know everything before you start something; just get started!"
Is this little smugglee hinting that I should start that assignment that I am trying to shove at the back of my head, in a little cellar, deep down in my brain, where I hope it will be forgotten?
Perhaps.
It may also be urging me to decide what to make for lunch.
Oh, that is a hard choice too.

Talking about hard choices.
What to do, what to do, when someone is very indecisive.
I, the little bouncy creature is very indecisive.
I will make a decision, and then I will change my mind, and then I will end up scowling and giving myself another headache as I ponder on what to do.
You know that feeling above your eyebrows, when your head feels completely numb?
Yes, weell I feel like that now.

Summer, get your butt here now. I am waiting.
Oh apparently the clocks change tonight.
Which means that it will look more like summer.
And also means that we loose a precious hour of sleep.
Woopie.

So dears what are you up to today?
I am in the mood to go for a stroll.
It's sunny out.
Which is always a good start.
I might as well take my camera with me, see if I can snap anything that glints and therefore catches my interest.

I will be posting later this afternoon, reporting on the photography adventure.
If there is any adventure. Which there may not be.
Random fact of the day- People with light coloured eyes are more sensitive to light.
So, that does not apply for me as I have weird coloured eyes. They're hazely-brown-green.
I call them Victoria eyes.

So, dear cupcakes,
we will be speaking later on.
Ta Taa,
the Victoria Eyes.
xxxx

ps. do you like the word cloud? I think it is very decorative.
Credits to my aunt who told me how to do this.
It is a secret dears.
(:


Dear Cupcake.

Labels: - Monday 22 March 2010


Cupcake.


I have a necklace that says that.
I believe it is lucky.
I believe it is amazing.
And that is why it is the word of the day. (:

Today I had this odd feeling to finish work. Like projects and essays- I had this unbelievable joy as I was tapping away on the keyboard about the debate between economic problems and hyperinflation in the 1920s, and also whilst trying to explain something in a different language.
It must be because it is a Monday.
Monday-ness. Yes, that must be it.

It was absolutely boiling today.
Not that I don't like the heat, don't get me wrong.
It is just I am a little indecisive creature, who one minute will be bouncing around loving the cold, and next minute will be bouncing around loving the heat.
I guess you get the picture.
I hope you do. (:

My ipod has the lonely bug again..
It is a bit like hayfever, which some people I know are experiencing at the mo..
So, once in a while, my ipod feels lonely.
It gets the desperate need for new acquaintances; new friends.
These friends are called songs.
Man, I love metaphors.

Because metaphors can mean two things at once.
Just like stories always have two sides to them.
Just like a cookie is crispy on the outside and soft in the inside. It has two forms.
Talking about cookies, I really want one.
But since it is not a weekend, and it is not the time to ruin any diet, lets control ourselves.
Yoga timee.
Actually maybe not.
I'm way, way too hyper today.
But that is a good thing right?
Right. (:

I've decided that everyone is psychic.
Like today, someone I know can tell when she gets a message on her phone. Without actually being near it.
Or my aunt, who always calls right when I'm eating dinner.
Or my sister, who whilst she was living with her boyfriend, would always call whilst I was washing my hair.
The list goes on....

Actuallement, talking about lists, I think they are amazing inventions.
I like writing them.
For example when I remember random song lyrics, I write them down.
Or whilst trying to do an assignment. Which is the joy of the world.
Or the supermakert list. Pff. I need to go there tomorrow.
Oh joy.

Can i ask you a question?
Its to do with this project..
When you hear the word "Cover", what is the first thing that pops into your mind?
The comment box would like to know. (:
Oh, and thank you everyone for all your lovely comments. I really do appreciate them. They put a smile on my face :).

My horoscope predicts that:

"You mean a lot to you-know-who. Don't underestimate how much others care about you."

Horoscopes are cool things.
I must give them that (:

So it is camping time for half my friends tmrww.
I will not be making a tent in my attic this time.
And this other friend of mine is in Peru.
Getting a suntan.
And when she gets back, she will stand next to me, and I will look like a little pale smook.
I like being pale though.

I will be posting tomorrow dears.
It is time for tea :)

Bye cupcakes
xxxx Victoria




It's all crystal clear.

- Sunday 21 March 2010

Bittersweet.


Such a difficult word to analyse.
Or to use in context.

But, personally, I think this weekend has been bittersweet. Not sour, not sweet. Bittersweet.
I needed to relax. After all, it was a difficult week.
But I wanted to see some people, that strong yearning, that longing you have.
At least me and my sister shopped our heads off.
Yes that was fun.

So, although some of your weekend habits may seem odd to yourself, did you know that they are completely normal?

-Apparently, it is completely and utterly normal to ruin your diet that you started last monday over a Saturday evening of food.
-And to shop your head off. :)
-And to go to the supermarket, which although is not an entirely pleasant activity, it must be done.
So if you ever feel like your weekends are completely worthless, and you believe that everyone else out there is having endless fun, that's not true.
It's normal to be normal dear.

My horoscope reckons that for today:
"Sometimes life is crystal clear. Sometimes it's harder to pin down. That's okay."

Which is true I guess.
I'm in a rather unhappy mood today. But I hope it will go away sometime soon.
I hope my unhappiness is not passed through to you.
Dears, if it is, let me know.

Continuing, I found out, that things such as your coffee, your computer font, your small hand movements and much more can really tell you a lot about your personality.
It was very self-learning I must say :)
So I have now learnt That:
-my nail picking habits, despite from ruining the varnish, show that I am anxious and that I want to scream at someone.
-my coffee indicates that I am a calm little thing, who cannot face up to people.
-my ipod which is constantly plugged into my ears, indicates that I constantly need a song playing for every event of my life
and
-that my nervous necklace-tugging that I tend to do, shows that I feel severely threatened.

Now, I don't really know how to string all these things together, but I thought it was rather interesting to mention.
I hope I am not boring you with my babble.

In addition, I have been shopping for summer.
Or, attempting to shop for summer, is the correct wording of this phrase.
You see, there's just so much to look at, so much to try on, so much to wish you could afford...
That in the end you don't actually buy that much.
You just look and sigh, as you stroll out the store, with that gut-dropping feeling, because you know you are leaving something behind.

I'm overdoing the description ain't I?
Sorry again ..

All I have to say is that I need a good night's sleep and a cup tea.
And the bad thing is that it is five in the afternoon and I feel like this.
Time to make a phone call to someone so we can have Sunday DVD night. Hope they will bring a chocolate cake with them too. It is a kind of tradition you see.
See, I told you diets get ruined at the weekend.

I will post later dears :)
Please tell me what you think and any ideas/question you know what to do. Ask the V.

Tee Heeee
Victoriaa (:


Clues and Scribbles.

Labels: - Thursday 4 March 2010


Note: This was supposed to be posted on Thursday. Please read it as if today was Thursday :)
Vii


"The fact that tomorrow is a Friday, definitely brightens up my day."
That was the thought I was gripping onto all day long, holding on to it as tightly as possible, with all my might, just to try and enjoy Thursday.
Of course, I couldn't see my thoughts. I couldn't literally grip onto them.
Wouldn't it be interesting though, if we weren't just gripping onto, well, air?
Interesting to see our thoughts float around in front of us? Like clouds? I think it would be.
Not that I did end up enjoying Thursday, but hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.


I was glancing at my previous post a few minutes ago, and I noticed that it was labelled "23 February". That is odd, as I only posted it 2 days ago.
For a minute, three options passed into my mind.
1. Time has stopped. I am simply moving through the world, while everyone else has frozen. Now that would scare me. Let's scrap that thought, shall we?
2. Someone, decided to play around with the week, and turned it around. Nah, that doesn't sound believable either.
3. My computer is simply acting odd.
So, I am guessing it is most probably number 3.
Moving on then.

What is the word of the day may you ask?
It is..... Proximal Convoluted Tubules.
Now, you are probably wondering why this is.
So today, I was attending a biology class.
It was warm, I was hungry, sleepy and bored.
All I had to do, was to pick my freshly coated nail varnish off. Which means I have to re-do it later tonight. Pff, great.
Anyways, so as I was not really paying attention to the lesson, one of the only words which stuck into my head were the "proximal convoluted tubules".
I then remembered what they were. They are the nephron ducts in the liver.
But, you probably don't need to know that.
I just assumed that they needed a mention and a little clap.

Also, I would like you to help me define a word.
Or just consider it maybe.
You, see I have been called a posh ***** this week.
By various people, that I have as acquaintances.
I apologize, I don't want to be rude, so that is why I put the *. I hope my vocab is not offending anyone :/ ? Hope not.
Great feeling I must say to be called that. Not.
In any case, how can I define that expression?
What is the exact definition of it?
To say the truth, they can continue calling me that.
I know what I am.
And I don't need their measly definition.

But, I think I'm going to stop complaining, and talk about more.. pleasant issues this afternoon.
In addition, have you ever known how livening a chunk of chocolate can prove to be?
I was very impressed at 11 o'clock when I grabbed a chunk of Cadbury's.
Cadbury's chocolate is my true love. I have decided.
It's absolutely magnificent.
Okay, I think it is about time to stop talking about food now.

So, my horoscope is my guidance today.
Okai, it is not, but let us pretend it is.
Oh, all-mighty horoscope, what have you got in store today? Huh?
Apparently: "Hmmm -- this idea seems like a good one, but you have a weird feeling about it. Listen to that feeling. It's not worth it to get involved with something that seems kinda sketchy."
Oh, I think I know what it is talking about.
Actually I don't have any clue. Actually, it could be about various ideas, or plans.
Like shopping plans. Cinema plans. Travel plans.
Anything. Any plans.
Any plans?

So, today I had to do a presentation for my studies.
Nerve-wracking experience I must say.
You know that feeling you get when you're anxious about something really important?
When your stomach turns and churns into a hundred knots and flips up and down, and you have to steady yourself, and get to grips. Yes that feeling.
Well, that is how I felt today as I looked at the crowd in front of me.
Stomach-tumbling over-nervous.
I avoided the eyes of the crowd actuallement. I just looked at the lights above them, so it would look as if I was looking at them.

I have this little thing with looking at people straight in the eyes.
It's not that I'm untruthful as some people say, or that I don't believe them.
It is just I feel a little uncomfortable staring continuously into their eyes, because it might look as if I am being rude, or persistently staring right at them.
So what I tend to do, is look at them for a moment, then avert my gaze a little, for example stare above their head for a bit, and then look at them again.
I have a friend who always says, whenever I speak to them: "Victoriaaa you're staring at my forehead again! Seriously, stop it! Vicki, look at me in the eyes for heaven's sake!"
Yes, well, I will work on that. Ha.

Also, do you get that little voice in your head sometimes, when someone is telling you something you don't like, and there you go, without any control, Whooosh, sarcastic comments are scattering your brain. Of course, you keep your mouth shut,
and keep nodding, as if nothing is bothering you.
Us humans are amazing sometimes. :)

You know, I recently crossed paths with a lovely song. It is called "Closer" by Joshua Radin, and I think his voice is so calm and soothing. In any case, it is constantly eing played into my ears lately. Actually, is is playing right now, as I write this, :)

It is so quiet in my house again.
There is that usual-steady hum of the fridge.
There is the dog barking next door.
There is the tea towel that has been scrunched up into a ball and left by the sink. Absent-mindedly I guess.
There is also my empty tea cup, and the bowl of oranges, which as usual, are laying untouched.
And the blank screen of the television.

You know, when ideas for this blog of mine pop into my head, but I have no absolute access of a computer, I usually write it down on a scrap of paper, or if worst comes to worst on my hand. So, right now, the table is filled with little scraps of paper, with my monosyllabic words, scrawled across in my handwriting.
The paper scraps are like snow, which is actually great, as right now I'm actually listening to a song called snow. Coincidence much? I think not. :)

Although, as I look at my hands, there's nothing scrawled on them at the mo.
I need some new hand cream. That's one thing.
And as I gaze at my thumb, I see my chipped nail varnish, which is a constant reminder that I have to repaint them.
From now on, I'm going to hide my hands under a jumper or a book, so my nails stay intact.
Oooh I used a new word.
:)

I really need to buy that bag I saw last weekend.
I am not going to describe it now; instead, when I do buy it, which will hopefully be soon, I will post a picture to show you all.
A clue---> It is peach/pink.\

Oh, how I love clues.
Just the way I love hints.
It gives you this aura of mystery.
I'm going bonkerss.

Talking about clues...

To xereis m'areseis, ma mhn me pistepseis,
s'auton ton kosmo, pou monh mou zw,
den yparxoun kanones,
ma mono eksireseis. :)
Decipher that perhaps?

Okay, so I understand that you are probably wondering what that means.
You might, in fact, believe that I just flung a string of letters randomly across the screen.
But, actuallement, I did not do that.
It is an actual thing. It means something. And I know.
Maybe some of you know.
In any case, I will give you a clue; it is lyrics of a song that I adore.
Don't think I'm mad. :P
It's a really nice song.

So, I will leave you decipher that,
while I go do my nails.
I will be posting later, or tomorrow :)

Tee Heee
xxxxxx Victoriaa :)

ps. i am decorating this post with a pic of my boots. :P
I was in the local park when I took this.
Tell me what
you think :)




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